Howdy do dee bloggy... So it's like 3 am DXB time and I just got off from sleeping on the couch while watching one of my favourite movies Speed. I just loved the chemistry Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves shared in the movie. But yea.. I fell asleep. I think 2 movies back to back was just a little too much to handle. Watched Changeling before that... Really good movie... Awesome acting by the little boy Sanford I think... Power seh!

Why am I even typing this? I have tonnes of things to worry about but I just thought I'd reminise (spelling check!) a bit. 3 years in Dubai this coming May 24th, had just signed a contract and impending another promotion, insyaallah in 3 months time. Was having a blast the past 5-6 months in First Class but needed a change. Yes, I am so blessed to be upgrading at this economic climate. Not that I'm complaining it's just too huge a step... I'm hoping to come out changed not have people wonder why I'm doing the job when I'm totally unfit for it. This is my challenge to myself.

Life in the friends zone. Dubai certainly has changed a lot for me. There are days I just wish I could be a hermit again... Especially as the 26th draws near cos my bank account will be running low. But I have really good friends here and totally not complaining about it. Friends in SG, hmm... It's getting hard to keep the dynamics of the fab trio of Az, nat and I but insyaallah we won't lose touch. I miss them dearly with Nat being in Sydney and all but true friendship will take on any test. Izad is in a relationship so he's in cloud 9, not to be touched till 3 months... Really happy for him, cos he's been searching a long time and he has finally found the girl. Admire him for doing that. He knows what he wants and he goes for it. As for Hanif, as quirky as he is, I still love him as much! So indecisive about love yet so certain about life. Although his life plans took a little shake cos of the economic climate but he'll pull through, he always does.

Adib and I are going strong, days when I wonder why try and somedays are just too amazing to let go. It's the same with all relationships that has lasted this long. He is now doing what he loves and accepts me for doing what I want to do. The relationship has gone to a new level with a goal for us. Insyaallah. Home front, I'm happy to announce: IRFAN IS GRADUATING!!!!! So proud of my brother, we know it's been quite a tough journey for him. Although it took a long time, everyone says nice and slow wins the race. He won the race and the whole family is just ecstatic. Parents are wonderful and Imran is just Imran lah.

As many things progress, there are somethings that took a turn to the worse. Friendships were made fast and quickly it broke down. The year 2008 has been memorable and a lot learning had to be done. Lost some friends just cos things are not going the right way and that caused the wound to get worse and worst.Yet it's life. Would give anything to have the way things were. To most of my friends, I miss you and I'm sorry I haven't been there for your big ceremonies and events but keep me in the loop, I love sharing your joy and sadness. For those who thought they lost me thru whatever circumstances, I'm still here...

3:15 AM; i'm flying away now Y

Never thought I'd ever leave Singapore to make a living in a foreign country. Never thought songs like Sudirman's "Balik Kampung" or the phrase "pulang ke desa" would ever mean anything to me. I know it's super early to be listening to Hari Raya songs but it's getting me so pumped about heading back to SIN. It's like a race to finish my flights and to finish my course and pack my bag and go! Do I make staying in Dubai miserable? It's miserable if you're here during raya! Sorry to peeps who can't go back... Insyaallah nxt year!

Novelty of Raya still high on my ranks possibly cos it's the only time I can catch up with majority of friends and family. My nephew Euan unfortunately will be in Adelaide finishing his final year. You are cetainly missed dude! Come back as a graduate!

What am I doing up at 7am DXB time? Truth is haven't slept! hehe... Intentions of picking up GFs from flight but it was half achieved. Got niza's flt arr wrong... :P hahah... But it was nice to catch up with Alvi, the traveller, on the journey to her home.. She's leaving us to go to BKK and SIN... Crazy girl! Certainly been enjoying spending time with them. As time passes, there's only a certain group of pple you can really click with and the rest become acquaintance. Even certain close frens can be downgraded to that level sometimes. People who you thought understood what you mean or why you do certain things, but other times it's just off. I'm not the sort of person who confronts situations, but sometimes I wish I would. What if I start? Will things be better? Hmmm....

Oh well, when I'm heading home, I'll be catching up with my family and friends who have been there for me and who knows me! Can't wait....

7:22 AM; i'm flying away now Y

Third time I'm fasting here in Dubai and it's been quite good. I've got new found friends and old ones to accompany for iftar so that I don't feel so lonely. likey likey... Haven't had a SIN flt in 2 mths but there has been lotsa blessing behind this misfortune. Sheereen has finally passed her driving test after taking it a numerous number of times... but considering the recent accident(s) she's had, she believes that the success might have been a fluke. Shan't describe to what extent the damage was made shall be kept in the circle of trust. :P

First day of Ramadhan, I had an eye infection which had me tearing up suddenly and me resulting in calling in sick. But got udang sebalik mee cos at the stroke of midnite, miss Surya spent her leave to see us. That evening we buka at Aniza's place. Aniza made a fishball soup proving that she can cook and Audrey's BF naser cooked his own style a treat from algeria. I haf to invite them for iftar one day to but... what shall i cook! Hehe... The subsequent days we ended in Tony Roma's 2 nights in a row! Niza's BF came for a visit and he has said that the reason he came to Dubai is not to see niza... but to have ribs... that's love man! Hehe... jangan marah niza! Surya and I had a blast... kita kan ader "kereta" jalan2 was quite a breeze... we did surya's 101 things to do list... which at the last minute grew and made it impossible to complete! Nonetheless, her visit was fun and greatly appreciated. Looking forward to many holidays to come!

I have a new Korean flatmate who just arrived a week ago. My previous Thai flatmate kept to herself most of time and this one is so different. She invited us to haf dinner together and stuff which is cool. Hopefully it will be a start to a great friendship. I am missing everyone at home but keeping myself at this major task at hand which will be due in 2 weeks! Please pray for me... And when that is over... BALIK KAMPUNG! 2 words I never thought I'd say before I came to Emirates!

11:01 AM; i'm flying away now Y

So I headed down to Manchester earlier this week. Everything went well till about 5 mins to departure this serious looking guy came and requested to talk to the captain and this is extremely unusual. Thinking it might be some cargo problem which is normal and will cause a delay, we were requested to do the service on ground as we were delayed for at least 2 hours. The 2 hours turned to 4 and pax were getting worried about their connecting flights out of Dubai. When we finally took off, the questions never seemed to end, if only I got 10 dollars for the times I gave the same answer. When we finally landed, Captain informed us that there was a suspicious item in the cargo which resulted in all of the cargo offloaded to be inspected. But it was very serious and scary.When it happens to you as a delay all u can do is complain but when you got the whole picture, you're definitely thinking better safe than sorry.

With the delay, everything I planned for the next day was affected. I was supposed to have driving lessons and it was cancelled. But it was a good think I went if not I wouldn't have known that the branch I go to has up and left to the middle of the desert. Thankfully, there was a shuttle and the journey took 15 mins. Still it's a hassle compared to the accessible 10 mins taxi ride to the old branch. Had one more lesson and came late and had only 10 mins lesson only to discover that I was scheduled to take my road test the next day and it's been awhile since I've practised. So when i went back, my instructor called, I left my road permit in his car. So had to rush early in the morning aft the Karachi flight to get it in the middle of the desert before going for my test. The result is of course... FAIL... haiz... 3rd time man!

And before all this, I decided to rush over to SIN for a few days cos just felt like escaping Dubai. Up and left with my uniform to the airport and got on the flight. Yay!! And for the first time I was in SIN and my luggage was left in DXB... Good ah? No underwear, no change of clothes nothing... haiz... This month has been weird... Hope to see the silver lining soon!! hehe...

5:59 PM; i'm flying away now Y

Bad habit... getting lazy to update my precious blog and doing it close to once a month. Haiz... Sheereen Sheereen... Bak kata Yana, "Malas Ah!" So what telah happened this June... All kids had a break from school and so did I! My daddy came for a visit cos I was on ground for like 4 days straight and it was too risky to go back to Dubai in time for my Tunis flight...

Papa and Abood desert BBQ

Doris and I in Tunis

3:32 AM; i'm flying away now Y

Not so blessed lah... It's my top bid (supposedly, EK gives me priority to get the flights that i choose this May) and I didn't get the Seoul or the SIN-MEL flight I asked for... They gave me lotsa off days and I was blessed cos my SQ galfrens came to visit...

Visitor Number 1: Miss Aristi Faezah... very the nice timing one she... I had like 4 days off... then can spend time with her many many. She is so happy and so in love that makes me so sick! Haha... It's always nice when you're in the relationship than the outside looking in which I recently became a member of. It's a bit weird cos all this while she has been the one looking at me doing all the gushy talk and the bushuk-bushuk name calling. Now my dear friend is in cloud 9 with Mr Azhary. Take care of her ah!!! (3 !!! = serious!) Haha.... It's just nice to see her all lovey (I also want sia!!)

Visitor Number 2: Miss Nur Surya Ambiah... always a delight to have this lady around...

(Left to right: Aniza Yusope, Surya and Sheereen Buncit)

Miss having her around so much seh... Suka sangat. We started this lady's visit by eating ribs at Tony Romas and then lepak at Aniza's pad. So much fun making a fool of ourselves and giggling for hours till miss Aniza couldn't sleep before her flight. (Sorry beb... tapi fun kan?) Then lepak at MOE, shop shop, eat eat... Lepak Lepak got a lot of deep conversations that makes me feel like I'm not going through stuff alone. Thank you so much dear. Enjoy your company lots and lots... Dubai isn't the same without you... May Allah haf a good plan for both of us and kita tak "ketinggalan".... :P

Visitor Number 3: Miss Shazana Latiff.... This lady not many story pasal kena stood up by her! But we hung out a bit in Surya's hotel room for a bit. She's a polymate of mine who hasn't change a bit! Still the same little vain girl with the make up and blotters haiyo... Hope to see ya for your 2nd visit soon deary!

Thanks for your visit ladies... Pleasure lepaking with you guys! Even though this mth I'll be in Singapore for like an hour (bloody SIN-KUL transit in SIN before spending a night in KL), but you made it less heartaching... Can't wait till this mth ends!

8:22 PM; i'm flying away now Y

Today was supposed to be a significant day but things change. Today will be a significant day for other reasons hopefully cos I've got my driving assessment test. Hopefully I'm deemed worthy of the dangerous roads in Dubai! Kwangs... But gauging by yesterday's lesson I'm totally screwed.

I've been on an emotional rollercoater these past few days that makes me think if all this is worth the trouble? We're both not gonna win no matter how much we've talked about things. I guess we've both come to a point where drastic changes has to be made and we are both unwilling to take the leap. Lately, I've changed from positive to neutral to total negativity. I used to be filled with so much hope and now there isn't much to hope for is there? I guess the only thing motivation that has kept me going is my family. They are the reason why I'm here and things hasn't changed so much but at least I'm not feeling worthless anymore. My family is able to breathe and settle things that they weren't able to in the past.

This is the promise I made for myself when I started this journey 2 years ago. Promises that I hope I will keep. One of the promises was just too hard, it slipped along the way.

So here's wishing you be happy and may you find yourself and find the one who's gonna be there for you both physically and emotionally. Thanks for the almost 2 1/2 years.

5:11 AM; i'm flying away now Y